Balancing life is hands down the hardest thing to do. There’s never enough hours in the day. Why didn’t God make more than 24 hours in a day? Or just make me capable to run on less sleep? Even though I’m in bed for 8-9 hours a night I haven’t got a full and good night sleep in almost 2 years. It’ll be 2 years once Avery turns 2 haha.
Avery has never been a huge sleeper. Even as a baby she was wide awake a lot and went down to 1 nap earlier than most babies. So with waking up in the middle of the night I sometimes have trouble falling back to sleep but luckily Avery doesn’t like to wake up before 7:30, thank you Jesus! Even though Avery is awake for 10-11 hours each day I still don’t get all the time I need and want with her. I’m very rarely without Avery.
I pretty much take her everywhere with me and she’s always next to me as I’m doing my daily things but at night I feel like I should have done more for her. I should have played with her longer, read her another book, and sometimes I question if she felt like she got enough quality time with me that day. I do my best but balancing everything sometimes can get overwhelming. Right now we are preparing for our trip to Europe and we will be gone for 2 months! This is very exciting but it also means a lot of prepping on my part! I like being in charge of all the packing and prepping in the house. So along with getting ready to leave Ive got a house to take care of, be a wife, be a mommy, and I also work from home. I am so grateful to have Josh! Without him I think I would be going crazy! He keeps me calm and relaxed and also has so much fun playing with Avery and making her laugh so I can do the things I need to do. My main goal each day is to accomplish all the things I need to do and make my family feel loved. It is very easy for me especially to get caught up in the things I need to do and not give Josh and Avery all the attention they need. Sometimes when I’ve had a long night with Avery I apologize to Josh for not having enough time or energy to rub or itch him. I want to make sure Josh is getting the love he needs too. He’s my rock and sometimes I take him for granted. Balancing is something that I feel is one of my biggest obstacles. I want to make it a priority to learn to balance everything each day. Currently I am praying that God makes me a early bird so that I can accomplish things and have some me time before the rest of the house wakes up! And I will continue to prioritize and remember the most important things on my list will always be Josh and Avery!